You left me, Daddy.
You left me for good this time.
You screamed at me, yelled at me.
I was sitting on the floor, crying,
Apologizing, begging you,
Please, please dont be mad at me! Please, Daddy!
You wanted to hit me, hurt me.
I could see it in Your eyes.
You raised your hand to me, snarled
You almost did, but You stopped Yourself.
Then You cried.
Sat down next to me, and cried.
I was scared, Daddy.
So I yelled back.
How am I supposed to do my homework now,
When Youre not there to put me in Your lap, guide me,
Take my pencil from my hand and kiss my neck,
Tell me that Im doing a good job?
So, this'll be the second time I'm writing this journal. Why? Because I went to fetch a link and when I came back to this tab, it refreshed itself and deleted everything. Anyway, lately a lot of shit has been happening. Basically, I'm failing highschool, even the classes I should be doing well in, just because I'm not motivated to hand anything in. And, my hamster died. My princess Peewee. Codie and I got to come to my mother explaining that she found Peewee on the table with a cat. It broke both of us, because Peewee was not just a hamster to us, or at least not to me, she was also a symbol of the baby we've trying for for about 3-4 months